This is what happens to gimps in my charge. This one isnt even in trouble. ;)

I torture my slut.

Ok to make up for some lost entries I am gonna give you a peek into a scene with one of My personal submissives. Hold onto your ....well just sit back and enjoy slave kitten speaks.


Saturday morning i took a really quick shower, thinking as i stepped out that i had no reason to worry about shaving. i wasn't anticipating showing anyone my pussy today.

It was really a sort of boring start, until Ms.Betka humiliated me early in the day in front of Ms.Ember that is, and i'd been at the studio all afternoon, hangin out and assisting Ms.Betka, video editing genius in the making. i went out to grab a drink and when i got back helped a couple of customers, then headed in the back to try and find something constructive to do. i ran into Ms.Betka who asked what had taken so long, and after i explained, She took me totally off guard and said, "Go unplug the open sign, take off all your clothes, and wait for Me next to the couch in the dungeon." Well i was very taken aback, my heart pounded extra hard for a few beats. "yes Ma'am" :) She went on to say that She had gotten an idea, (i just love Her mind) and was going to take a shower. While She was in, i fumbled around with finding the plug to the sign for what felt like an eternity. i finally found it and ran to the back and started to strip, then remembered the sign outside, threw my clothes back on and went out to get it. By the time i got back inside, washed up a bit and got naked i was just freaking out because i was afraid She would finish Her shower before i was ready and waiting. But i made it, and stood by Her rack full of dangling implements naked and alone for a few minutes waiting - i was stunned, very excited and trying not to let my anxiety build too high. It had been quite a while since Ms.Betka played me, even longer since She had played me alone with no one else around. i forgot what it felt like to be naked before Her and was extra self conscious and nervous- for a lil while ;) She returned from the shower smelling yummy, had Lords of Acid playing loudly on the stereo, and told me to kneel in front of the couch and look down, then i was blindfolded. i wanted to see Her this time, but it was still comforting and calming... She stepped away for a moment and when She came back stood behind me and told me to stand with my hands behind my back. i stood up and the next thing i remember feeling was a leather strap wrapped around my neck and quickly tightened to a snug but breathable fit, She buckled my wrists in so they were restrained behind my back, then circled in front of me, trailing Her hand on my skin briefly. i tried not to breathe too fast, but the mere closeness of Her, a small bit of energy felt, accelerates my vitals. She adjusted the blindfold and then reached to the large bag of assorted clips, clamps, and clothespins that was set nearby- She put a couple of clamps on my outer pussy lips, and then my nipples- She flogged me softly, used a crop i believe, on my pussy that sounded more intimidating than it actually felt, and i shivered when She touched me. i believe She changed Her mind a minute later and replaced the clips on my nipples with smaller, tighter clips that hurt and were placed at the most sensitive point, directly on the tips, very uncomfortable and i thought that my pinched nipples would stay at the front of my mind for the duration of their attachment, but how am i really going to stay focused on a little nipple torture when Ms. Betka is taking my mind to so many other places:) She went behind me again and told me to step forward. i started slowly, She told me to put my feet together and walk more quickly, then just pushed me forward to the spot She wanted and laughed a bit.

She disappeared again, just long enough for me to begin relaxing, then catch myself relaxing and reawaken my senses to anticipate whatever was in store next. Then i heard Her behind me again, and what i felt next was at first confusing and not an extremely strong sensation, but very distinct. i felt it again and again, jumped as another touch felt stronger, and my mind was racing to place it. The first two touches felt similar to the fly swatter- but i knew She couldnt be shocking me because i didn't feel Her presence close enough to be using that, and it was... different... this all happening within a very small time frame, i finally figured out what it was-a second later- Her whip. She spoke up, "It feels different with clothes on doesn't it?" and giggled a bit. She had been swinging around Her singletail lately, and quite frankly im scared of it. The sound makes me jump, though i try to hide it, and i have been curious of course as to the feeling- but still afraid none the less. She pulled me aside earlier in the afternoon and practiced for a few minutes with me standing there clothed, through jeans- and though they provided a barrier and She wasn't throwing it hard at all... a few of the stings got through and i was struggling to keep cool with focused breathing, not because of the pain at that particular time, but the intimidation factor, theres this big, sadistic Dominatrix with Her whip landing on me its scarey even if i know and trust Her. i liked it. And it was very different without clothes on, the stinging was alot alot more sharp and condensed. She stepped back and threw the whip in the air a few times, freaking me out even more now that i had felt what just a small amount of effort produced with it, i would crumble to the floor crying like a baby if She put a lot of Her strength into it. She threw it against my ass and thighs a few more times, hard enough to make me squirm and let out small noise i couldn't supress... i became fearful that if She began hitting me harder i would start to move around, and i tried to hold my position as best as i could- though retrospective self criticism tells me i could have done better- i had this thought for a moment that i was about to have my ass whipped until i was screaming and it was decorated with blood dripping stripes, She had been carrying that whip around all afternoon, who knows what Her sudden inspiration could be, i'd just go with the flow, and i wished for more bondage and a gag to help keep me still and quiet, but Ms.Betka had other plans thank goodness and that wouldnt be necessary. A couple more lashes and some moans and jumps- She changed up and finished introducing my flesh to Her whip. i am afraid of it, but i do really hope that She will use it with me again. She heated my ass with some caning and occasional overwhelming paddle blows and open handed slaps, She touched my pussy and teased my clit, and i tried to stay focused and not push my pussy into Her hand so much. She told me to breathe in, and pulled the clips off of my labia, She rubbed the throb away, brushing against my clit and making it jump. more light caning going down my legs, and then i remember standing there, waiting and i suddenly felt Her close in front of me...i wanted to stretch out and touch Her but resisted. Then something spectacular happened, She moved closer towards me and suddenly Her breast was touching my face, She was naked, wow- stunning... it was so good, my heart sped. pushed my body into Her softly, wishing for freedom of my hands to touch Her amazing, luscious body. i opened my mouth and kissed Her breast, licked it and pressed my face into Her, then found Her nipple and began licking and sucking. i love Her breasts- Her whole body actually, but something about having my face crushed into Her large, beautiful tits sends me into slut mode. It is a very comfortable and lovely place. i licked softly and in circles around Her nipple as i sucked at the same time and kissed Her skin when i came up for air, i was so happy, am so thrilled to have been allowed such a wonderful experience, and it only gets better. She laughed when She pulled away and i stretched to follow Her nipple with my mouth. Then i recall being ordered down on my knees, face on the floor, ass in the air- very awkward, my nipples were killing me by now and pressing against them brought that pain back to the front of my mind, and i had trouble for a moment getting situated with my hands behind my back. She adjusted me and rubbed my bottom for a moment then ceased contact, i started spacing out at this point. Hard to describe, i was only aware of the sounds, placement, and energy... and it was all a big blur too. as i adjusted to my position with a faceful of carpet and very exposed body, Ms.Betka struck me with the cane across the bottom of my ass and i cried out, the pain went deep and the sting was strong- She followed up with more and my noises got louder, i kept in mind to try and not move too much but still did. She rubbed my pussy and it felt divine in the midst of the pain, and She threw in a few swings with a paddle that resonated in an entirely different way and were still a shock in between the canes. She used more than one cane for sure i knew at the time and confirmed later while picking things up. i could tell the difference in thickness between them when She switched, the thicker bring tears to my eyes more quickly and i felt much deeper than the thinner, but those long, thin canes are vicious too and produce slicing pain that feels hot and can force me to and also make me really want to scream. i feel so lucky to have the ability to process pain the way that i do, and know i am capable of. By the time Ms.Betka told me to stand i was reaching subspace and would have cleaned the dungeon walls with my tongue if She told me to. When i get high i've come to realize that i am able to completely engulf my thoughts and actions into what She is doing, what She orders me to do, and what i feel. The rest of the world slowed down and died and i could think of and feel nothing but what She gave me. i was happy, why am i so happy in such situations? It baffles me but i try not to question it too much because its inexplicable and enjoyable. She didn't speak much, and i can't recall what She did say. i stood up and it felt like my blood was rippling up through my body in strange waves. She touched my lips with Her fingernail and i opened my mouth, began licking Her fingertip gingerly, Her nails are long, then took Her finger in my mouth and started sucking on it. i love to suck on Her fingers, it makes me very very hot and wet, . She pushed Her finger deeper in my mouth and took a handful of my hair, pulling me back so that i arched awkwardly, and She kept fucking my mouth with Her finger. She pulled harder on my hair, forcing me backwards in a very uncomfortable and erotic position, shoved another finger in my mouth and laughed as i struggled to keep steady and continue sucking. It was around now that i realized i could make the strap tighter against my throat by pulling my hands down or out, and i kept doing that to restrict my breath... just a little. Time disappeared at this point and i remember Her fingers going in and out of my mouth, me sucking and licking them, leaning back into Her and feeling Her pull back more on my hair and feeling so exhilarated and awesome, and sort of out of control of my body but not in a bad way; i was at the will of someone who i trust, who i fantasize about daily and truly desire to serve correctly. i am not incorrigible- if i were i wouldn't try so hard. i can't remember when She took Her fingers away, but She led me by the hair to the floaty table on chains and told me to bend over it. i did, and She started with a cane again, the first few strikes made me bury my face in the table and tense up. lying in that position hurt my nipples terribly as the clips pushed into my breasts , they ached from the movement. Then i made myself relax, told myself to enjoy it and savour it, and i did. either i reached a space where i could absorb and accept the pain in a different way, or She eased up. i am not sure, i wasn't thinking clearly enough at the time to tell. only a brief period passed before She landed a swift cane blow on my right leg making me moan, tighten my muscles, and sending my senses into overdrive. Just before She strikes with the cane, and paddles too, when She sometimes will press it against my ass, or my thigh, wherever She intends to deliver... it is such a strange and frightful experience, knowing that She is about to hit me, and where it is going to hurt, and that im not going to do anything to avoid it.. and Wwe both get off on it...its really a mindtrip. my head was spinning but i wasn't anticipating what would happen next. The blindfold had moved up my head a bit from my struggles, but i tried to keep my eyes closed because if She wanted me to see She wouldnt have covered my eyes.

i was calming down a bit still all bent over the table, and suddenly i feel something being pressed against my pussy. A cock, i got excited! She pushed on it a bit more. i think i made some of those little girly "fuck me" whimpers. i would have backed onto it if She hadn't placed it in such a way, but i was actually pulling away from it and squirming about. She is so mean. She was rubbing this cock against me, pressing the head against the space between my pussy and ass hole, making it feel like if i backed onto it or She shoved it in it would go right up my ass. i can get into that, but in that way and at that time, it was sort of scarey and i would avoid it if i could,,, very torturous. Finally She graciously eased it into my pussy and began fucking me, i was easily worked up and recognized that She was using the same cock She used on me the first time Wwe played.... when She fucked me until i was sliding across the floor on a silk sheet saying that i couldn't do it anymore. :) i think She fucked me with it first by hand... then slid it in Her strap on belt...i nearly exploded. She slid it in and i felt Her hips press against my ass, i was told to put my legs together and it felt even more intense when She plunged Her cock deep inside me. Having Her press against my body and fucking me from behind, the contact, rhythm and angle... imagining what it looked like to see Her fucking me.. i wished to get rid of the blindfold and look up at the mirror lined wall of the dungeon i knew Wwe were facing. i absolutely loved it and can close my eyes and remember the feelings clearly- i intend to masturbate to those recollections for awhile. i know what a privlidge it is to be fucked by Mistress Betka, and i feel honored that She feels i am worthy to receive Her mind-blowing cock. She continued to fuck me and my first orgasm erupted, i was probably all writhing and moaning, i remember when the songs switched i realized i was being loud and got sort of embarassed. She must have told me to stand up, i dont recall that direction. i stood still facing the floaty table and Ms.Betka was behind me, She reached around and at last pulled the clips off of my nipples- i can't put the sensation into proper words. i gasped in pain. Throbbing, tingly, take your breath away absolutely delicious and lovely pain. She squeezed my nipples between Her fingers, and rubbed then until the pain started to dissipate. i cringed, squirmed and moaned deep as the blood pushed back through and felt delerious for a moment, it was amazing. i managed to utter a thank You.

What happened next gets even better. Mistress had me walk across the room and kneel to wait for Her. She returned a minute later, and i wasnt able to resist anymore and peeked out the tiny crack at the bottom of the blindfold to see what was going on. i couldn't see much, but figured out where i was- next to this piece of dungeon furniture that looks like an easel for a person to sit in with spread legs. i seen a bit of flesh, Her leg flash by and move away, and i don't remember the moment Her finger entered my mouth again, i do know that i eagerly took it and sucked on it like i could show Her my passion and gratitude. She fucked my mouth with Her finger a little, which is beautifully intoxicating, and pulled me in closer so that my cheek brushed against the inside of Her thigh... my heart jumped into my throat and it felt like my body temperature rose. i was hesitant, didnt want to act out of line but really wanted to put my mouth on Her body. She pulled my face in more with Her fingers and i realized that She was letting me worship Her, i think She was naked... and i was just thrilled... and suddenly nervous. Still a bit low i inched up and let my mouth drift from Her finger to the inside of Her thigh. i kissed and let my tongue trail up Her leg to the curve where thigh starts turning into soft fleshy outer labia, my own clit started to throb and i think my body temperature rose. i stretched up some more, as best that i could on my knees with my hands behind my back. i wanted sooo badly to reach up and touch Her, run my hands all over Her body while i sucked Her off... but being restrained, unable to move freely like i am used to when between Her legs, the loss of that power was extremely sexy to me. my mouth reached Her pussy and i started licking- finding my way around in the dark, still trying to hide my struggle to reach Her, damn- i wished i were just a few inches taller. i found Her clit and gently licked around it, i am still pretty nervous when giving Her head because of Her new piercing. i would really hate to move it the wrong way and cause Her discomfort...but it seemed okay. Still feeling rather spaced out and wonderful i licked and sucked on Her clit in a sort of euphoric daze... dropping down to feel how wet She was and licking Her juices... She tasted so so delicious. i felt Her hands on my head and this turned me on even more.. i went back up to Her clit and started circling it with my tongue, having to remind myself to stay steadily slow and not speed up and devour Her like an ignorant slutty fool. i felt Her christina on the top of my lip and turned slightly so that i could begin sucking Her too, and was trying to stay focused on not falling into Her and staying balanced as i stretched up. Sounds complicated but i was filled with so much energy at that point, being on my knees with Her hands in my hair and my face in Her pussy, i was oblivious to the discomfort, entirely consumed by Her. i stayed on Her clit, circling and sucking and staying in rhythm until i felt Her begin to tense and move Her hips, She pressed Her pussy deeper into my face and i felt Her come in my face .. one of my most favourite things to do is suck Her off. i continued to lick but slowed until i felt Her clits sensitivity level dropping, and i would have happily stayed and given Her head for another hour or two... but after She had an orgasm and Her body relaxed, i licked and kissed around Her pussy until She ordered me back down onto the floor, took me a minute to get my sense of direction straight and Her instructions had to break through fuzziness inside my head, i laid on my back on the dungeon floor waiting for what She would do next.

i must have done something very good. As i sat on the floor by Her desk earlier in the day, Ms.Betka had told me

that i was doing a lot better, i beamed inside when She said this. So i'm laying there for a few minutes while She disappears, still glowing and thinking of how i had just sucked Her off, i was so fucking high on endorphins, so incredibly turned on and wet. Suddenly a large piece of latex was dropped on my face and i nearly had a heart attack, really i opened my mouth and almost screamed, had to catch my breath, thats how much it surprised me and freaked me out! A split second later i grinned beneath it, breathing in the air that i could and the smell... the smell of latex turns me on. She left it there and took a cane to my breasts.. She didn't strike me too hard but i was sort of afraid and reacted more strongly than i should have, breast torture intimidates me- i sort of used my piercings as protection before. But it was part of my thought process in taking my jewelry out that i was probably opening myself up to more pain when Ms.Betka played with me. i wanted it. She pushed the latex down on my face and sealed off the air flow, then She started fucking me with Her cock.. pumping it in and out rapidly and making me gasp and moan, sucking the latex in as i did. She lifted it and let me breathe, and then pressed it back across my face and put Her hand across my throat... it was so fucking awesome. i lost time, sunk into a deep mental space and totally got into the breathplay.. She fucked me... so so good. i came quickly and the orgasms i have through penetration are different than the ones i have when i stimulate my clit also. When i come due to g-spot play the sensations just crash over me again and again... and She kept fucking me harder and faster, i could feel and hear Her spitting on me and it made me even hotter. i felt Her mouth on my nipple and She sucked it very hard, pulling my breast up and i think i felt Her teeth sink in a bit too. It felt like electricity shooting into my chest, sharp and intense.. i moaned loudly and squirmed. She cut off my air supply with the latex several times and continued to fuck me, occasionally turning the dildo around to use the other end..which is perfect for gspot access. i was lost in a dark happy place, moving about wanting to simultaneously grind into the cock and also pull away from it while i gasped for oxygen. She would let me breathe for a second, then continue pushing on the latex... i think there was a point where i was actually turning my head, following as She pulled it away to let me breathe... like i didnt want to breathe. i am a strange girl. i feel sort of silly for acting so cock hungry and being so loud- if it weren't for the loud naughty music Ms.Betka had playing i would have probably sounded like an animal... i really just felt out of body in a way- not that i was like looking down from above with wings and shit- but just my average state of mind slipped away and was replaced by some uninhibited...being. i tensed and shook, feeling the latex pull in as i gasped and i came, it rippled through me, my muscles squeezing the cock as She fucked me furiously...gasping for air that She wouldn't provide, i felt so high and so exquisite.. i felt Her cock into my upper abdomen, then She pushed down near my pubic line and it intensified even more. i was nearly screaming and realized that i was squirming away, She told me to hold my legs in the air and giggled as i struggled to keep them up as She plunged the cock in and out- at one point i felt some sharp pains inside my stomach and cried out, "too deep" She eased up a bit and the pain ceased, but still carried on without stopping. She graciously allowed me to lower my legs and i rolled on my side, feeling another wave rip through my pussy up through my body.. i came again and held onto the sensation while She continued to fuck me.. She slowed and sped up again, then slowed and i was just so fucking dazed, She'd take me up and down, make me lose my breath and just go crazy. She eased the cock away, i dont remember, and i laid breathless on the floor. As She stepped away, She touched my back and it sent tingles up my skin. i was regaining composure and coming back to earth, Ms.Betka asked if i was asleep. i wasn't, not even close- just recovering. i managed to sit up and She came over to release my hands, rubbing my wrists for a moment before unbuckling the leather strap around my neck and taking it off. She rubbed my neck and it felt so wonderful- i had been pulling the strap tight around my throat while She fucked me there on the floor and felt the line where it dug in a certain place. i took off the blindfold and my eyes adjusted to the light, turned to Ms.Betka who was sitting next to me now and just wrapped my arms around Her and squeezed. i laid my head on Her chest and She put Her arm around me and stroked my skin with Her hand... i just felt so good i almost cried. Ms.Betka was so good to me...She had just given me such an explosive gift, Her attention, and energy... She makes me melt.

As i was getting my clothes back on a short while later Ms.Betka was laid out and relaxing and i looked over and noticed Her watching me, instantly got very shy and felt the need to hide. Why?? i have no fucking clue... after a scene like that, knowing She knows what i look like naked, just fucked me silly and tortured me, its no big deal... i act so silly sometimes i need to stop it!! She laughed at me as i attempted to slip behind a curtain but it wouldnt cover me from that angle and She was smiling and looking at me, the attention made me feel self conscious for some reason, and i made a huge mistake. i wasnt thinking, and i sneaked into the next room, a red light going off in my head immediately, but a little too late. i went back in the dungeon and apologized for leaving the room without asking permission. i felt stupid and ignorant, She had just been so good to me and then i failed to do something She expects and has told me to do. i really had that room exiting fucked up. i must do better.

We left not long afterwards, i went home with Her to hang out for a little while and help Ms.Betka unpack from Her recent trip to SF. Watching bizarre shows on television and drinking tea, i cleaned up the kitchen and played with the kitties, served Mistress tea and food and took some things down to Her truck- then unpacked a bag full of all kinds of interesting and hot fetish wear before leaving for the evening. Saturday was a wonderful day. The aches, marks, and bruises that remain with me are beautiful and have kept Her in my mind.